29 May 2006
My 7 Sins...mwahaha!!
 

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Very High
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

Wow! No wonder I can be a temperamental procrastinator!

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freshrimp put thoughts into writing at 14:24.
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I don't understand
 

The first period in school was free. Yay! At least we don't have to do work. But it was boring and I was feeling lonely. I mean, there are like 40 students in the class, I don't have to feel that, yet I do nothing about it. As I looked around the class just now, I couldn't help but notice the ambience was full of life. People chatting with one another, people laughing out loudly at some jokes, people having a philosophical conversation. The din, the noise, the joy. It was a time to catch up with friends, and I'm not doing that. I feel left out, yet I don't approach people and ask for a chat. Am I being an ignoramus or something?

Fine, I did that. I tried hard to listen and enjoy, but I just couldn't. Maybe it doesn't interest me. But I think it's my fault too for being choosy. I only talk to certain people (so limited). So I mostly just sit there doing nothing, with little social interactions. Note the key word little, I still talk, but not much.

Computer period is also pretty much the same thing. Another free period. Oh joy! Instead of talking to the ex-3Y people, I just sat there and did nothing at first. And life began to spring out of everybody. Talking, chatting, laughing, discussing, sharing... It's driving me crazy!!! Men are supposed to be social animals. Why not me? What I do... The noise is getting annoying, it's too much for my ears. I hate them, I'm jealous of them, I'm envious of them.

And when Steven came, I couldn't help but let tears just flow out of my eyes, shattering into tiny droplets as they hit the surface of the table. (Sorry if this sounds melodramatic, it was expressed rather exaggerately). I couldn't talk to him. We communicated by paper. I choked up my words. I can't express them verbally. Only the power of pen can aid me in expressing my emotions and my feelings, things I don't normally express to everyone everytime. Thank you Steven for understanding how I feel. You brought me back to perspective and helped to scale down my problem for me. And yea, feeling left out and lonely just sucks high time. And Alex, sorry if I didn't talk much, I was too caught up in my own world. (Yes, yes, I know, I'm very "emo" =P)

Well, in the end, I then tried to talk to my 3Y friends la. It was awesome. Haha...although it was for a short time ^^. I enjoyed it lol. But what followed after Computer wasn't very pleasing. It destroyed my fragile mood again.

So, being a councillor and all isn't an easy job for me. If you think I enjoyed yelling and scolding people for little things, then think again. It would seriously make my job easier if ONLY people can cooperate with me. It upsets me that...even some people in 4s2 won't even listen to me, just because I'm their friend. Look, I hate to put this bluntly, but I have no choice but to do so:

Although I AM your friend, you have NO RIGHT to assume that I can let you go and break the school rules!

If you think eating cookies with that face in front of me is funny, it's not. If you're trying to be a pathetic joker, please, I'm sorry but I don't get your job. And it's not just one, it's all in the gang.

Seriously, mister, it is that hard for you and your clan to go down and eat and finish off the cookies before coming back up again. You all know very well that it is against the school rules, so why do you have to do it. And WHY DO YOU ALL THINK THAT BECAUSE I'M YOUR FRIEND, I LET YOU GET AWAY HUH?!

I can see your faces now very vividly once again as I type this out. Showing me the cookies with that stupid expression plastered on your faces "I know you don't dare one!" and down the cookie down your throat? Bless you, my poor souls. How I wish you could choke on that cookie for being that daring! Fine, it's a small matter, but rules are rules nevertheless, and no matter how ma fan it is, you still have to obey it.

And gay la, one of you also have to nerves to bite off that one last cookie before I can take action.

PLEASE LA, show a little respect to me okay? I'm not trying to be narcissistic here, and I'm not attention-deficient either, but with sincere thank yous to you guys, you have made my day! Hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never intended to do it, but it's my job. In order to be fair to everyone, I have to treat everyone fairly, friend and foe. Got it?! >=(

I never felt so pissed off in my lives. And I thought it would be better by telling off you guys gently. Instead, I have to use the violent way, not the diplomatic way.

So much for that...


P.S. I'm no longer lonely anymore, I hope...
P.S.S. Once again, I repeat. My job is to uphold the school rules. Regardless of who you are, if you break the rules, actions will be taken, ranging from the mild "pretty please" to DRASTIC ACTIONS if needed and felt necessary. Sorry to my friends, but it's my job. Please understand...

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26 May 2006
Funny Cinema Clip
 

Two woman watching the Da Vinci Code movie. Watch what happens in this funny Singapore clip =P. Thanks to Karen Foong for the link ^^: click here.

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22 May 2006
Cancer Update!
 

Thanks to Luisa Jie Jie for sending me this Fwd: mail. Thought I would share with everyone here instead of sending it ;).

Cancer update -- Johns Hopkins -- Cancer News from Johns Hopkins:


1. No plastic containers in micro.

2. No water bottles in freezer.

3. No plastic wrap in microwave.

Johns Hopkins has recently sent this out in its newsletters. This information is being circulated at Walter Reed Army Medical Center as well.

Dioxin chemicals causes cancer, especially breast cancer.

Dioxins are highly poisonous to the cells of our bodies. Don't freeze your plastic bottles with water in them as this releases dioxins from the plastic.

Recently, Dr.. Recently, Dr. Edward Fujimoto, Wellness Program Manager at Castle Hosp! ital, wa s on a TV program to explain this health hazard. He talked about dioxins and how bad they are for us.

He said that we should not be heating our food in the microwave using plastic containers. This especially applies to foods that contain fat. He said that the combination of fat, high heat, and plastics releases dioxin into the food and ultimately into the cells of the body.

Instead, he recommends using glass, such as Corning Ware, Pyrex or ceramic containers for heating food. You get the same results, only without the dioxin. So such things as TV dinners, instant ramen and soups, etc., should be removed from the container and heated in something else. Paper isn't bad but you don't know what is in the paper. It's just safer to use tempered glass, Corning Ware, etc.

He reminded us that a while ago some of the fast food restaurants moved away from the foam containers to paper. The dioxin problem is one of the reasons.

Also, he pointed out that plastic wrap, such as Saran, is just as dangerous when placed over foods to be cooked in the microwave. As the food is nuked, the high heat causes poisonous toxins to actually melt out of the plastic wrap and drip into the food.

Cover food with a tower instead.

This is an article that should be sent to anyone important in your life!

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Papers Have Been Returned...
 

What disappointment! Only like 3 papers were returned todays nia... Haha, I'm so happy that I actually got credit for my English Paper 1. I nearly wrote out of topic, and I was commented to stay more focused on the topic and not be too descriptive. Thank goodness! I outdid myself =D.

Malay 2 was so-so I guess. And Maths, ugh~ I did not intend to join in the NSW Maths, but why must she tick my name on Saturday when I didn't say anything. I should have said "No" but I feel that it only will make matters worse and in the end, I still have to participate. In other words, I was forced to pay up la. Hai~~ But I know it's not only me, there are other people too.

Luckily I got a B for Maths (phew!) I expected my marks to be in the mid-50s, since I did badly for Section B. Haha...Thank goodness it never happened. Kesian Si Nelson though, he only needs 1 mark in order to pass =\.

This morning, I received an unexpected surprise from Marcus. He took out his mobile phone, and I was like, "Hey! You're not alllowed to...Oh, nevermind. School has not started yet." I was wondering what he's going to do with it.

And he showed me the picture. I recognised it instantly. I have seen it all the time in a certain website. My eyes lit up with joy when I saw it, my heart beating so fast I thought it could fly out of my chest. Adrenaline rushed all over my body.

IT WAS THE SIMS 2 EP: OPEN FOR BUSINESS!

Even better. He told me it was sold in Hua Ho Manggis, near my house again. It really lit up my day man. I could never been happier. Who cares about the price, if one can enjoy playing it for years to come (Ok, not really la haha).

DAMN! I want it now...Now...NOW!!!

EEEEE!!!!

Okay, I'm tempted to buy it today. I downloaded the patch already ^^.

After this post, I shall indulge myself in Sims 2. You may say I have no life, but the truth is I have. Otherwise, I wouldn't be here you know ;) (Choi!!!).

It's my hobby, okay? Nothing sad about it, okay? You have your own interests, I have my own too. It's just that not many people have similar interests like mine, therefore you tend to think it's weird/sad/lame/lacklustre/boring etc etc etc. So there!

Umm...this is rather sudden, so bye-bye?

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19 May 2006
The Beginning of An Ending
 

...has yet to come. The finale of the Mid-Year Exams 2006 had came to an end on Wednesday, 17th of May 2006. For me, that is! =D So basically what I'm doing now is just playing Sims and more Sims the whole time.

Exams have been pretty hectic for me, and I didn't do so well this time (or should I say again?). Honestly, I think I'm slacking off, and that's a seriously bad sign :|. And the computer kept calling and chanting my name. "Turn me on...TURN ME ONN!!!"

My worst paper was Physics, not surprisingly. It seemed like everyone struggled it. I know I completely screwed up the last Section C question about some vertical oscillation and you have to draw a graph. Oh dear...I was panicking la at the last minute. So I gave up hope of scoring marks for that question and hantam shade in 3 MCQ answers lol! First time doing that man. I didn't even read through the question. Hopefully if I'm lucky enough, I get them correct AHAAHAH!!

This is a pretty short post, but I don't know what else to post up. It's more like gratitude that the week-long exam marathon is finally over.

I need to play now. PLAY PLAY PLAY PLAY PLAY!!!

And tomorrow...

CRY CRY CRY CRY CRY!!!

I don't want to fail my Paper 1 English, I think I wrote out of topic. I described too much, and the main plot was written very very briefly. I'm so gonna die. My understanding, interpreting and writing skills have deproved lar. Hopefully I get ngam ngam pass or something =S.

I hope I won't fail my Physics...

Talk to you guys later, and thanks for tagging everyone!

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12 May 2006
OMG!
 

I don't believe it! I actually got merit for Grade 6 Piano Theory Exam! Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh!!!

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH =D =D =D !!!!!

Damn! And my piano teacher told me that I am the first person to get Merit for Grade 6 in Contessa! (I'm the 4th candidate to sit for that exam by the way)

I'm not bragging, I'm just too happy! =D

Oh well, back to studying Biology. (At least it's an interesting subject for me, after "someone's departure gone. Sorry if it sounds mean)

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10 May 2006
2 Papers......Over and Done With!
 

So why am I still here thinking, "I should have done this. I should have done that!" I know its already over, done with, yet why I am still making unfruitful wishes hoping that Doraemon will come out of my drawer and invite me for a ride in the time machine?

Today's paper was okay, but I think it was because of my anxiety that I made everything upside down. The Karangan paper was so-so, but I thought I could have written a better one if there's more time allocated and oh, if only my brain wasn't dormant at that time. I only kicked into gear after writing half of the essay. =S (Here I go again! Droning away the "if only" wishes)

Maths, a subject I occasionally enjoy and sometimes dread. The Maths paper was fine. It was supposed to be fine. I knew I could do all the questions! Yet, I did the paper badly. Reason? "Not enough time."

Man, I suck at managing my time well. I have been trying to master the art for a long long time. I now am still a slave of time, not the master over time. Damn, what is seriously wrong with me? =
Anyway, about the Maths paper, I spent too much time on Section A. I thought I could have finished the whole paper by 11.30 am. But no! Just when I realised it was already eleven o' clock, I was still struggling with the first question of Section B! I can't believe I did my test ever so slowly, I'm not surprised that a snail crawls faster than I write.

Not surprisingly, I entered into panic mode (again!) and quickly skipped the first question and moved on. I never came back to that. For some reason, time decided to play a game with me and it purposely went faster. It was infuriating I tell you. I was cursing deep inside while I was flustering with the papers (answer scripts and question papers). I couldn't think straight. Even a simply calculation I had to turn on the calculator and start calculating la.

Yes, I know I'm over-reliant on my calculator. I was never good with mental calculations.

And my brain was dead at that time. I was worried. I just couldn't know what to do. I had the sudden brain block, and I knew I can kiss my marks in the later questions of Section B bye-bye. A seemingly average question that only needs some analysis turned into one that can consume me. It's an illusion, I knew it was, but I didn't have the time to complete. Besides, the last question was on mean and mode (and something else, but its not median), and I could score some "pitiful" marks for it (that can make a difference of C or D). Mweh, I knew I screwed that.

My mean was 18! (whereas the question wanted the answer between 1 - 6 I think)

Hahhaah...Hahahaah...HAHAHHA!

The last few minutes, Ms Ong was announcing some countdown. I mean, does she have to intensify the pressure that I was going through? And at the last minute, she was drumming my fingers in time with my heartbeat. =( Sigh~ what to do? At least I did my Section A well mah, except for one or two questions.

And that's when I saw my 3 marks going down the drain. I messed up the quadratic equation. Dang, I could have saved myself some skin =\. My whole body was trembling again man. And like I said earlier, my brain was dysfunctional. I'm young, yet I'm old? I'm too young to suffer Parkinson's and Alzheimer's diseases la!

Haiii.....

Hai...

Why am I still thinking about the Maths paper which is already over? I feel so disappointed in myself la. I did a lousy performance on the papers. Why am I so pessimistic today?

I should just forget about it and instead concentrate more on studying my Chemistry so that I can rob back some of the marks that I lost in Maths and compensate it in my average. Blah~

I feel blue today. But I need to put myself together asap. Because I know it's not worth crying over spilt milk. Sigh~ I'm just worried about the happenings of post-exams...

Self-reminder: do as fast as possible and don't underestimate the papers. I didn't, and I regretted doing so. It's not what it seems it is...it is all an illusion. Unless you are very certain of your facts, that is.

Wishing everybody good luck for the rest of their exams.

P.S. New comment feature found after this entry. It's the "Have your Say" link. Try it out!

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06 May 2006
Cool Fun Facts
 

Thanks again to Luisa Jie Jie for sending me this cool FWD: mail. (Yea, I'm supposed to be on "hiatus", but mweh... =P)

Blood plasma.

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05 May 2006
Ermm...Be Back Soon
 

This one is totally random though. Yesterday, it was

01:02:03 04/05/06

Nice number hoh ;) ...

But that's not the point. I'll be on study leave, in other words, hiatus for a while la until Wednesday, 17th May. I'm so happy I don't have to sit for any exam paper on Thursday! Wahaha!
But after that, I will have to get to work with the KK trip presentation. I was ermm..."lectured" by the President -.-". Man, so embarrassing la! I can't believe my procrastination got me into so much trouble.

Saya telah insaf sudah. No more last minute works from me. Ever... (I hope!)

See you guys later on the 17th!

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